im jz a normal human being not superhero ok.....

y im so busy tis few week especially when i take over all the pregnant teacher's work..... im not only work for teaching and yet need to do other thing like semak the exercise book, selling ticket, do tis n do that so much things to do.....

cant finish it de and i have not enough time to rest lar..... pls la all the things please leave me away lar..... i hate tis kind of feeling cz i come for work just to fill up my free time not swuppose to be crowded by so much work.....

n all of that is not my responsible to do it ok..... im just a guru ganti for 1 and half month and i cant learn everything like a professional teacher that having their training at university or college.....

and why the school always like to add more burden on teacher and force us to do everything with only few days for us to finish it since all of us was so busy preparing our lesson and teaching materials and we still need to settle all the things tat given by school war.....

really hate tis kind of feeling just make all the teachers more tension n stress war..... especially for us who didn't undergo any training before war..... remember that we are not superhero that can solve problem so easy and can learn all the things so fast war..... cz we are just normal human being.....

tat all from me 2nite..... good nite..... :(

my future laptop n handphone.....

Toshiba Satellite L510-S4017B

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Sony Ericsson Aino

tat all for 2nite lar..... good nite everyone.....

不开心,好累哦.....

已经开始教书3天了可是还是不能适应..... 感觉好累而且压力真得好大好大简直快把我打败了..... 这3天的生活过得真的很慢不过那只是刚开始接下来还有4个星期得熬.....

现在终于明白老师的工作不是普通人能胜任的..... 感觉上很容易不过实际上却是忙到不幸任何事都得做..... 有时准备功夫没做好根本就不能好好的将知识教给学生们.....

这样的生活我还得继续过下去..... 那对我来说可是比任何事都更难而且开始教书后我的笑容也消失了..... 每天都带着满满的压力还有难过的心情到学校去.....

可能我真的不适合在这个行业吧毕竟那不是兴趣而且我对于教导方面也不是很擅长..... 真希望这种生活能快点结束不让我真的回收不了.....

现在的我还可以靠意志力撑下去所以希望能早点摆脱这种不是人过的生活吧..... 晚安啦各位.....

feel down.....

2day is the most unhappy day when i start work at school for 3 weeks.....

sick and busy with everything that gonna prepare for next week lesson.....

n yet tis morning i feel so sad cz get scolded by principal.....

don ask me why cz i don want to think of it again.....

haiz..... what a moody thursday for me.....

forget all the unhappy things is the most important things that im gonna do now.....

signing off bye n good night everyone 2mr will be a new and good day again.....

一个月后.....

今天是4月11日没什么特别的不过是个很美好的星期天啦..... 跟往常一样去了教会参加崇拜过后就去吃早餐然后就回家咯..... 很简单的星期天所以我才说没什么特别的..... 至于下个月5月11日就是很特别的事了..... hahahaha

再过一个月就是我20岁的生日了感觉好快哦就这样又过了一年而且又老了一岁..... 记得前几年还是个顽皮的小鬼现在却已经是20岁的大人了什么事都得靠自己了不能处处都靠家人..... 还好现在的我还有份稳定的临时工作能赚点钱让自己用......

其实往年的生日都是和一群死党朋友们一起过所以今年也一样还是会和朋友们一起过咯..... 今年的生日落在星期二所以我想因该会提早庆祝咯..... 因为我也明白大家都很忙没时间而且那时的我因该开始教书了所以会更忙.....

至于礼物嘛其实我有很多东西想要的不过不向大家破费所以就选了两样好让你们能够有更多的选择空间为我准备礼物啦..... 第一样我最想要的礼物是'飞机模型'而且是知名航空公司的飞机模型不是那些在百货公司能找到的那些哦.....

我想大家都知道我的愿望是成为一名飞机师所以飞机模型就自然的成为我礼物的首选啦..... 我知道那可能是间很难的事不过如果你们真得办到了我会很感激你们的..... 我帮你们做了调查这份礼物可以在网上找到.....

只要进入http://www.lelong.com.my/ then search for 'aircraft model' then click 'model' and find in page 4 and 5 inside there got many type of aircraft model i want..... 我是不是很好叻还帮你们找到了购买我礼物的地方只不过要邮寄所以要早点准备哦.....

如果觉得很麻烦美关系还有第二个选择咯..... 我的第二个选择是一片电脑游戏片..... 片名叫microsoft flight silulator 2004 还是microsoft flight simulator x..... 这两片电脑游戏片我已经找了很久不过始终没找到.....

我想出除了这两样东西以外别的礼物你们应该是无法负荷啦所以就挑了我最想要还有大家都能负荷的礼物啦..... 我很期待你们为我准备的礼物哦虽然说我已经知道了不过还是很期待的..... 所以有劳大家啦谢谢..... hahahaha

无言.....

为什么最近总有很多莫名其妙的问题环绕在我身边啊..... 真搞不懂如何回答那所有的问题更不知道如何去面对一切的一切..... 或许现在应该是时候整理下内心的复杂情绪还有那些困扰我很久的事了吧.....

或许现在的我还是维持着一个人的生活比较好吧..... 不用去想太多更不用去烦恼任何事那该是多好的事啊..... 项太多也是无济于事啦所以抛开一切专心在我该做的事上就可以了何况我还有很的梦想想在今年完成的.....

前几天我儿子问了我个问题让我顿时觉得不知道该如何去回答他的问题..... 他说既是才能帮他找个妈妈而且是真正的妈妈..... 那时的我觉得好无助哦很想立刻转移话题可是他还是一直问让我无言以对只好否认了一切.....

也许那对我来说依然还是个谜吧根本就没打算过那种事情..... 使我不紧张吗, 可能是吧我也不清楚就觉得没那个必要那么早就谈恋爱咯..... 机会多的是而且那应该不是我现在该想的事所以暂时把它葛在一边吧.....

就酱咯没什么特别的哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈..... 再见啦

sick le and 2mr programme.....

haiz..... start coughing again tat mean im gonna sick again soon lar..... i don wan lar everytime when start coughing it will be long period jz will cure..... cz i have asthma during my childhood period but tat is jz a short period lar..... so scare of coughing each time.....

long time din sick le i think last time i sick was last year same time as tis year if im not mistaken..... cant remember about it cz i seldom sick ma..... 1 year only 1 or 2 times nia not much de not like others hu keep on sick everytime.....

so 2mr is school replacement day so need to work again lo..... same time start from 7am to 12.30pm lo..... haiz nowadays saturday oso cant rest le every week got replacement de (sienz)..... but have to do it oso lar no choice war.....

and 2mr all of the teacher need to wear batik to school including GSTT tat mean we oso lo cz the GSTT refer to us war..... hari permuafakatan lar so bunga a bit lar..... so jz now went out to buy a batik shirt for 2mr lor.....

the batik cloth cost me about rm48 after discount for 20% la..... so consider cheap lar if not need to pay rm58 to buy 1 shirt war nt worth at all..... although i din wear it frequently but at least each week thursday need to wear 1 time la..... so jz buy it la borrow oso ma fan la.....

2mr morning will be a very free morning cz i din in-charge of any class to meet wif the student's parents except my friend or other teacher wan me to accompany them la or else will be free lor..... so will be a bit boring la..... haiz.....

ok lar tat all for tis post lar..... see u guys on next post.....

learning new things.....

starting from tis week i start learning some new things at school lo..... beside sit in for teacher hu absent, i start reading some physics books lo..... cause want to gain more knowledge on that so that i can understand more about all the theory use for an aircraft to fly in the sky......

actually i regret of didn't study physics last time when i was in form 4 & 5 lo..... but i have no choice that time since my result was too bad during PMR and jz manage to study at the last class of science stream which without physics subject lo.....

now thinking back why i din take extra subject for instance like physics or general science during SPM exam since this 2 subject will be more easy for me to score for it and i only need to remember all the formula and thoery to answer the question.....

this few days when i read through physics reference book for SPM, i found that it was interesting and let me want to continue on it to learn more things la..... i think because of my dream that cause me to focus on it gua.....

so i will still continue on what im doing now to gain more knowledge before i go for technical interview for pilot course..... tat is my dream i wont give up of it..... hahahahaha that all la guys good night.....

因为你不喜欢我.....

这是一篇很值得一看的日志..... 写出了很多心声:

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我经常给你发短信
只想了解你的最新情况

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我为什么经常给你发短信
不是此刻想起你
而是我一直想着你
只是此刻想你想的最厉害

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我为什么会知道你那么多的信息
因为你的一切，哪怕是早点吃了什么
对于我来说也是有意义的

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白你和谁在一起干了什么
对我来说都是一种纠结
我会乱揣测，乱生气
即使我们什么关系也没有

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
你的一句不在乎
我为什么会那么在乎
我在乎的不是这句话
我在乎的是你的人

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道我打出那一句句
那你忙吧！我不打扰时
内心的纠结

因为不喜欢我
所以你不知道
我的手机里面存的都是你的信息
不开心时，看着看着，不自觉的傻笑
因为感觉你就在身边
安慰我

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
你对我的忽冷忽热
总是让我不自觉被你掌控
一半甜蜜，一半忧伤

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我为什么会经常生你气
喜欢上一个人
也赋予了他伤害我的权力

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
在我失去你信息的日子里
我是多么的沮丧
我怕就此失去你

因为你不喜欢我
所以你寂寞的时候不会想起我
而我却在时时刻刻的想着你

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道你在我眼里多么的重要
而我知道我在你眼里却是十分的渺小

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
我的MSN只为你一个人而闪亮
只为你一个人'在线'
即使有时你是隐身或是离开, 也许为的是等别人的头像
亮起来
我也觉得值得

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不会关注我的空间，Facebook的变化
但是你只要偶然打开看一眼
所有的所有跟你全有关系
我会为了你看到
而感到既兴奋又紧张

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
我的MSN和skype状态只为你一个人改变
我的心情
永远只是写给你一个人看

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
在你坚持喜欢着某人的时候
我也在坚持在我的坚持
一直在这儿等着, 等着你

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不知道
我等待着你的关心
却等到我关上了心

因为你不喜欢我
所以你不明白
你的一举一动对于我来说
都是指挥棒
指挥着我的心情和生活
你没有关注过我
没有在乎过我
甚至不知道我一直在默默奉献着
因为你一直都不懂.....

quote from Tim Ngu..... really touch hahahaha.....

清明节.....

虽然真正的清明节在明天不过今天早上就和家人一起盗墓园去扫墓啦..... 今天起的特别早4点就起身准备前往墓园啦..... 今年是我第一年去扫墓咯因为之前还小嘛而现在已经20岁了也该去看看过世的公公了.....

在我1岁那年公公就因癌症过世了所以从小就见过公公的样子就只是透过照片看到而以咯..... 而就连他的墓地在那我也不清楚只知道在诗巫的某个地方咯..... 所以我老爸就在上星期叫我们3个兄弟姐妹都一起去咯.....

毕竟将来我和妹妹去读书了也不懂什么时候才能去了所以曾今年还有机会就去下吧顺便看看公公的墓地长怎么样..... 5点准时出发去载了大伯后就直接到墓园去啦而我们首先先到太公和太婆的墓地去看看然后献上花后就走啦.....

太公和太婆的墓地事先已经有别的亲戚来整理过了所以还蛮干净的而且那里的山路也好走很多咯..... 接下来就到公公的墓地去啦然而这里的山路可没那么好走了我没得在昏暗的照明灯下满满的穿过树林才会到达公公的墓地.....

一切都很平安我们终于到达目的地啦所以就开始打扫咯..... 其实也不是很肮脏啦只是泥土很多所扫扫下就可以了还有用水从干净就可以啦..... 因为我们家是传统的基督徒世家所以没烧纸钱更没拜拜就是点两根白蜡烛还有摆上花就好啦.....

扫完墓已是早上7点啦赶不上第一场的复活节圣餐主日崇拜所以就没去了..... 真的感到很对不起今天是复活节我既然没去崇拜..... 过后就和亲戚去吃早餐然后就回到家洗个澡休息下咯..... 而现在就坐在电脑前啦.....

就酱啦再见啦各位.....

tayar pancit.....

2day is Good Friday but for me is a very good day to sleep since nowadays i need to wake up so early in the morning and went to school to work lor..... feel sorry to my friend and dear Jesus Christ because i din went to church tis morning as it was a special day lor.....

cant wake up tis morning cz im too tired and i need to bring my aunty to go for breakfast as they come bak from miri yesterday night to go for chin ming tis sunday..... so wake up a bit late and prepare myself then went out and go yummy cafe to have our breakfast lo.....

finish breakfast go shopping for a while to buy something they want then prepare to go my grandmother house tis afternoon..... 2pm start our journey from my house to Kanowit (a small town lo) wher my grandmother live.....

drive for around 45 minutes later something happen le a really bad n malang thing happen..... u guys know 2day was my 1st time pancit at the middle road wor..... really malang war want to fix it by myself oso cant war cz the screw was too ketat cant open it.....

at last call my uncle to come and help us to change the spare tayar but the worse thing is my uncle oso cant open the screw..... no choice we need to drive the car slowly to go a motocycle shop and told the tauke to help us open the screw.....

luckily it was manage to open it at last and we change the spare tayar then after that me n my sis both of us use the slowest speed to drive our car back to sibu..... really a black friday for us and it was a new experiance oso lor.....

but hope tat wont hav second time lo..... and my arrive home safely lo so don worry lar..... tat all form me 2day la n good night everyone.....

my pencil box.....

haiz..... my pencil box wher r u oh..... sorry for forgetting u at school 2day since i was too rush tis afternoon when i was settle my things at school..... i really forget wher i put u wor but i think there somewher at school la.....

i will find u back at school tis saturday morning again..... really sorry sorry wor..... i promise that i wont let u at anyway again oh..... see u soon ah miss u war my pencil box..... tat all form me la n good night everyone.....

p/s: wish i can find back my pencil box this saturday.....

translation.....

hi everyone, sorry for late update about my teaching life n my daily life wor..... is being a busy week for me as i need to help teacher to do many things and sit in for diffrent teachers who din come to school or need to attend any other competition and so on.....

this week actually were be more busy than the 1st week i work at school since more teachers know us and will give us something to do as we are too free for the 1st week..... we willing to help oso la cz work ma cant reject de if we really free to help lor.....

im helping my teacher to prepare some competition stuff this few days and everyday i need to face the computer from the early morning to the night time since it was quite a lot for me..... i need to do research about medicine course for local n overseas college and university.....

after that i need to translate all of it from english to malay..... hard lar if dint use google translate to do it..... but the only things tat i hete is i need to correct all the gramma mistake as the malay translate result from google is just direct translation it wont care abt the gramma mistake.....

do it for 3 days but i still cant finish it at last as it was too much for us and there is just 3 of us do it wif more than 50 page of work sheet..... really tired when u face the computer for whole day and need to think of the gramma mistake then correct it.....

i think tat the way i train my computer skill and train myself to be more hardwork as all of that i need to finish it on time..... this is the 1st time i do so many translation since form 2 when im attending the test for "jurubahasa" (1 of the scout badge).....

anyway new experiance for me and happy to learn new things.....